Well... damn... it's been quite a while since I've done this huh? I think the last time I did it was before I left for China... in June..... promising I'd do it more...

I clearly broke that promise. This here is my attempt at redeeming that broken promise. Since it's been such a long time, I wonder exactly where I should start. I guess the most obvious thing would be school life. I'm now living in apartments close to school (20-30 mins walking distance depending on foot speed). I ended up living in a living room with one other person (bonus points if you can guess who that is). The only reason for that arrangement is because the second room in our 2 bed 2 bath apartment is way too small for two people. Our apartment is pretty nice and decent sized (you know... considering the area). The rent is split between 5 people so it isn't too expensive. I'm starting to learn how to cook. I have to admit, cooking is pretty fun lol. I have no problems with cooking (especially the eating part LOL). Cleaning has also become a big part of my life. I think I'm becoming a clean freak (or on the path to becoming one). I have been doing non-stop cleaning for no reason. It hasn't even really been dirty, but... it's a good way to kill time when you're too tired to study. Sigh... the only good thing I can think of the amount I've been cleaning is that it'll be a very good experience for when I actually own my own place and will have to clean it up myself. That way when all is said and done I won't be completely useless when that time comes. Speaking of apartment life, it's actually been way harder to get set up than I anticipated. Two weeks in and I'm still moving stuff in and out to make sure I can live here in relative convenience. And yet... I still have a lot of stuff that I need.

This quarter I'm taking a total of four classes for a total of 17 units. Based on classes only, school really is business as usual. I don't really have much enthusiasm for learning anymore though. I really want to work, but because of my indecisiveness and inability to take an interest in anything I have no idea how to proceed on that. Currently my plans are to try to get into a grad school, and work at it from there. One step at a time is the only way for me right now because of the lack of direction my life holds. Honestly, I haven't really accomplished anything I had hoped to do yet... It is nothing short of sad and pathetic LOL.

I guess I'll talk a little about my social life as well right? We can call this the "catch-up" post. Um... lets see... well... I'm still a borderline recluse. My days are mainly spent hanging out with the people I live with, or going to class to suffer though lectures. My roommate does like dragging me out with him when he goes places, with the rationale that "he wants someone he knows there" or "you should get out". I don't know... I really just go along with it because the alternative is... well... to take the "borderline" out of my "borderline recluse" title. During school days, I'm usually on campus way more than last year because the place where i live isn't incredibly close to campus. I usually spend my free time reading materials from my classes. If there's nothing to work or I'm too tired for that I end up taking a long walk that has no destination, direction, or meaning... I just walk until my legs feel sore and then... realize that now not only am I mentally tired, but I'm also physically tired and... yeah it makes the class after it a little more hellish than usual. Friends wise and such... I've made basically no progress on that front. However many friends I had the previous year... either stayed the same or went down. Seriously, I suck at making friends lol. Obviously I don't have a girlfriend yet, and yes my dad is still in some sort of panic mode. I think my mom is in that mode too. Despite all that, I'm not in the position where I can say I honestly want something that time consuming on my hands. There's enough stress piling up on me as it is, and I'd rather not run the risk of adding more. So while I will be looking, there is a very low probability I will actually act on anything. This person would have to blow me out of the water for me to consider anything.

In terms of catching up... that's a lot of the more important stuff that has happened up to now. I skipped summer break just because I think my school life is currently the more relevant topic on hand. For real, this time I'll try to make it so I update this place more frequently. Um... I really wouldn't mind suggestions for subjects to talk about. It would probably open up my mind a little more... and I'm not the type to back out of promises and the like so... yeah please any suggestions appreciated. Till next time then.